last friday i was feeling so much anxiety about being in the city. being up here ten floors and being surrounded by buildings was making me want to die. i got out of work and walked a block down the street, there was a huge crowd....so im like okay somethings going on. i start to walk slower bc im afraid of what i might see. i see people surrounding this body on the street. i see this girls legs and i start to freak out bc im afraid maybe this person jumped or this persons head is smashed or bleeding and i dont know what to do but i dont look away. her girlfriend is holding her hand and shes just laying on the street on her back bc i think she got hit by a biker. there was no blood and she seemed like she was going to be okay, thankfully. but she was just laying there and people all around on madison avenue. she might have been like 22. people yelling and freaking out. i wanted to die. im gonna die here.